Trust

What do you know about trust? Can you, will you, believe in someone and put your trust on them?

Often I heard from my friends, and people, that we shall never trust people too much, and we shall not trust anyone too easily. While normal people have trust issues on strangers, friends, life partner, family and etc., I, myself, have a complicated trust issue on my own self.

Yes. I don't trust myself. I hardly understand why my friends can put their trust on me and tell their secret things to me. I don't even understand why people can trust me at the first place.

I broke my promises, promises that I made to my best friends. Once, I hurt one of my best friends badly by breaking my promises. In return, he became so depressed that he have minor stroke. That guilty feelings, I swear to lord it did kills me. 

Apart from that, I did fight with my girls because I tell lies about them. (Well technically, I didn't literally tell lies about them, I just exaggerate about the truth)

That’s when I stop trusting myself. In my daily life, I realise that all I did was just hurting people. I hurt people. I turn someone nice to a monster. I break those hearts. I make them stop believing in friendship, love-relationship, and etc.