Stop It

I thought it's already over. We ended this fight. We ended this bloody cold war between us. I don't understand why did you talked about it again. Why must you used that sarcastic tone again?

We all agreed that we should end the fight. I really dislike that tone. You told us that you've nothing else that you aren't satisfied about them. But then again, when we're alone, you used that kind intonation as if you're insincere about being friends with them again.

Oh Lord. You should stop now, dear. Never ever bring this matter up again. We all agreed that what have happen in the past will stay in the past.

We ain't perfect. But we can change to be a better person, can we?

Friends

For me, friend is someone whom you know in your daily life. But BEST friend is someone who is close with you; someone whom you share everything with, someone who would always there for you.

From you were kids until you are now an adult, it is normal to have fight(s) with your best friends. I did have fights with my best friends. My point is, it doesn't matter who start the fight first, it doesn't matter who’s guilty, all that matters when it comes to friendship is one of you should apologize first.

Being the first person to ask an apology doesn't mean you are guilty. To me, it means that you care enough about your friendship, that all you want is just to be their best friend again. Either in friendship or relationship, you should put your ego aside. If everyone doesn't want to admit their fault, maybe, all of you will start to set a distance and sooner or later, you guys would be strangers.

Strangers - Friends - Best friends - Strangers

Neither of us wants this thing to happen. So my advice put your ego aside. (Unless you really hate your friend that you can’t even look at them)

Trust

What do you know about trust? Can you, will you, believe in someone and put your trust on them?

Often I heard from my friends, and people, that we shall never trust people too much, and we shall not trust anyone too easily. While normal people have trust issues on strangers, friends, life partner, family and etc., I, myself, have a complicated trust issue on my own self.

Yes. I don't trust myself. I hardly understand why my friends can put their trust on me and tell their secret things to me. I don't even understand why people can trust me at the first place.

I broke my promises, promises that I made to my best friends. Once, I hurt one of my best friends badly by breaking my promises. In return, he became so depressed that he have minor stroke. That guilty feelings, I swear to lord it did kills me. 

Apart from that, I did fight with my girls because I tell lies about them. (Well technically, I didn't literally tell lies about them, I just exaggerate about the truth)

That’s when I stop trusting myself. In my daily life, I realise that all I did was just hurting people. I hurt people. I turn someone nice to a monster. I break those hearts. I make them stop believing in friendship, love-relationship, and etc.